lessons started proper today. quite annoyed by that because i spent most of the time trying to answer the questions posed to us by the teachers during tutorial but couldn't really contribute much because my mind was drifting off to sleep. i think i need more time to ease into the whole going back to school thing. unfortunately, with this being A level year, the teachers are hardly going to cut us some slack.

came home with more work added to the pile of work yet undone. NYC meeting ended late last night and i reached home at 930. so i only had time to finish my international trade tutorial and not the lit work. i hate prepping for lessons. plus, there's still the Maclaurin's left to do and the touch up for math. somehow i'm supposed to finish all those by around tonight.

the good thing is that i reached home at 345 in the midst of pouring rain. it was early enough for me to finally haul my lazy ass downstairs and to the gym to resume my not very frequent training. i used to run everyday last year from june but apparently that led to my sprained back muscles so i only run twice a week now. probably 3 times from now on including PE. really want to tone my upper arms but that's taking time. and all the training while good, doesn't seem to be enough for me to pass my 2.4. i guess i have to gradually work out, starting with my endurance to finish 2.4 and then on the speed. gym's going to be closed for 5 more days starting tmr so it's back to punggol park for me for the time being.

i sense in my posts a lack of hyperness, a lack of depressiveness, a slightly detached narration of my feelings and school life. i'm not sure, guess it depends on my mood. i won't say it's the maturing of my mind because i sure don't think that's the case but there's an air of finality surronding the things i do. certain things. good things will come to those who wait. you just have to know me more than what you see on the surface. after all, i'm both hyper and depressive at times, almost as if i'm on crack. guess what i'm trying to say is that right now... i just feel... like a stone.

oh man, the homework... i just can't bear to think of it nor start. (now that's emotion!) if you're looking for emotion, let's see... "I dream" fantastic song to make me extremely hyper. but i should stop mentioning it as people seem quite tired of me telling them to listen to it or die. just kidding about the die part though. i never said that. heehee.

PS2... good game to try is Prince of Persia. okay, so maybe i'm still in the midst of playing it but it's not bad. can't give you a rating but it's looking to be about 7.5 or as high as 8.5? my standard quite high. looks like i'll be taking a while with this game due to lack of time and the whole priority thing. plus, the fact that i'm still borrowing from my friend and my playing time is also subject to how free she is.

when i think back on the past, the days of old, i think of you and smile... i've found gold. thanks guys for making life what it is for me.